After doing so many & suffering so many, I am still your girlfriend only. In fact, I can't even be on the same weigh as your family. If you were to ask me how important are you to me, you are as important as my family or rather, you are already part of my family.
But guess this doesn't applies to you? Afterall, I am still an outsider.

Labels: Getting tired.

12/28/2010 03:11:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

Level 1

(x) Smoked A Cigarette

( ) Smoked A Cigar

( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

(x) Drank Alcohol



SO FAR: 2



Level 2

(x) Am / Been In Love

( ) Been Dumped

(x) Shoplifted

(x) Been Fired

( ) Been In A Fist Fight



SO FAR: 5



Level 4

(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person

(x) Skipped School

( ) Slept With A Co-worker

(x) Seen Someone / Something Die



SO FAR: 8



Level 5

( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends

( ) Been To Paris

( ) Been To Spain

( ) Been On A Plane

(x) Thrown Up From Drinking



SO FAR: 9



Level 6

(x) Eaten Sushi

(x) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook

( ) Been in a Mosh Pit



SO FAR: 11



Level 7

( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship

(x) Taken Pain Killers

(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have

(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By

( ) Made A Snow Angel



SO FAR: 14



Level 8

(x) Had A Tea Party

(x) Flown A Kite

(x) Built A Sand Castle

( ) Gone mudding

(x) Played Dress Up



SO FAR: 18



Level 9

( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves

( ) Gone Sledging

(x) Cheated While Playing A Game

(x) Been Lonely

(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School



SO FAR: 21



Level 10

( ) Watched The Sun Set

( ) Felt An Earthquake

( ) Killed A Snake



SO FAR: 21



Level 11

(x) Been Tickled

( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized

(x) Been cheated on

(x) Been Misunderstood



SO FAR: 24



Level 12

(x) Won A Contest

( ) Been Suspended From School

(x) Had Detention

( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident



SO FAR: 26



Level 13

( ) Had / Have Braces

( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) Danced in the moonlight



SO FAR: 27



Level 14

( ) Hated The Way You Look

(x) Witnessed A Crime

( ) Pole Danced

(x) Questioned Your Heart

(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes



SO FAR: 30



Level 15

(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud

(x) Been Lost

( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World

( ) Swam In The Ocean

(x) Felt Like You Were Dying



SO FAR: 33



Level 16

(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep!

(x) Played Cops And Robbers

(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers

(x) Sang Karaoke

(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins



SO FAR: 38



Level 17

(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't

(x) Made a Prank Phone Call

(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose

( ) Kissed In The Rain



SO FAR: 41



Level 18

(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus

(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About

(x) Blown Bubbles

( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere



SO FAR: 44



Level 19

( ) Crashed A Party

(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People

( ) Gone Rollerskating / Blading (Ice Blading?)

( ) Had A Wish Come True

( ) Been Humped By A Monkey



SO FAR: 45



Level 20

(x) Worn Pearls

( ) Jumped Off A Bridge

(x) Swore at the teacher, in front of them

( ) Swam With Dolphins



SO FAR: 47



Level 22

(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube

( ) Kissed A Fish

(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes

( ) Sat On A Roof Top



SO FAR: 49



Level 23

(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs

(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel

(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours

(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about



SO FAR: 53



Level 24

( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree

(x) Climbed A Tree

( ) Had/Been In A Tree House.

(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone



SO FAR: 55



Level 25

(x) Believed In Ghosts

( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes

( ) Gone Streaking

(x) Visited Jail



SO FAR: 56



Level 26

( ) Played Chicken

( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on

(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger

( ) Broken A Bone

(x) Been Easily Amused



SO FAR:58



Level 27

( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later

( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one

( ) Caught A Butterfly

(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried

(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed



SO FAR: 60



Level 28

( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone

(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You

(x) Cheated On A Test

(x) Forgotten Someone's Name

(x) French Braided Someones Hair

( ) Gone Skinny Dipping

( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

(x) Tried to hurt yourself



SO FAR: 65



Level 29

(x) Rode A Roller Coaster

( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling.

( ) Had A Cavity

(x) Black-Mailed Someone

( ) Been Black Mailed



SO FAR: 67



Level 31

(x) Been Used

(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs

( ) Licked A Cat

(x) Bitten Someone

( ) Licked Someone



SO FAR: 70



Level 32

( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint

( ) Had sex in the rain

( ) Flattened someones tires

( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on

( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

Labels: woa.. 70

12/07/2010 02:42:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

刚好我们拥有彼此寻找的好
可惜不太凑巧在错的时候情路上遇到
若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我决不肯这样眼睁睁看你重回她怀抱
嘴角勉强撑起了笑也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
因为你说说到做到提得起放得下才有男人的味道
我不是不知道没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
就算是我傻得可笑失去当成得到只要能够对你好
我都会做到
你是否懂我的感受
说走却舍不得掉头
我不该爱得太绝
让你我如此难过
为何我爱的一切没有结果

Labels: 煎熬

12/07/2010 02:40:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

Nearly fainted just now while going praying with Granny. Scare the hell out of her.. Lols..
Been staying over since Sat & will only return on Fri..
I miss my bed, I miss my blanket, I miss my pillow, I miss my computer, I miss my house, I miss him..

He had been going MIA for days. I understand it when he choose to go MIA within his circle of friends, but me?! Ain't I suppose to be his girlfriend? The one that his should trust & depend on?
Am so dissapointed with him. The few times when I manage to contact him, it only lasted for afew minutes.
Asked him why he don't want to reply my messages.
Asked him why he hung up his house phone.
Asked him why he didn't contact me.
And all his answers for the questions is "I don't know" & "How I know"..

Am really very dissapointed with him..
I tried to help him out as best as I could everytime.
I tried to change my attitude as much as I could for him.
I did so many so many things for him.. I really did change my bad temper & everything..
But all my efforts seems to be going down the drain..

Tired of typing..
Feel so weak all over.. Should I just give up the both of you?
Tired man..

Labels: Giddy spell, is it even a spell

12/06/2010 10:52:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

18th Nov 2010 .
Yea, 1 more month had passed & nothing changes..
The sun still rises, the moon still sets. It is still the same..
Had a ridiculous quarrel earlier on..

Well, am lazy to elaborate..
Guess it isn't important or even As important right?

Labels: Mermaid

11/18/2010 05:29:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱只能那么少
我只有不停地要
要到你想逃
泪湿的枕头晒干就好
眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
以为在你身后
是我我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要
我不要你的呵护 你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好 贪心也好
哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望
我不要你的承诺 不要你的永远 (我需要你的承诺 需要你的永远)
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好 贪心也好
最怕你把沉默 当做对我的回答
原来你什么都不想要

Am so sleepy after a day of torture & waterfall from my eyes caused by You-Know-Who..
Finally get to eat at RMall after the long torture.. Saw Jonathan & chit-chat with him while eating.
So damn pathetic-.- Lazy type.. Sleepy head~

Labels: Yawn

11/12/2010 09:51:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

Labels: Kiwi

11/12/2010 04:51:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

It is 4.01am and it is a Friday morning!
Been asleep from 4pm+ till now. Didn't eat anything throughout the whole day. Really ate NOTHING at all! gosh~ Nothing at home for me to eat now. Saded..

Time seems to passing quite fast for me. Really..
When was the day you left my life? I couldn't remember at all. Really..
All I remembered for these past few days was the 1st time we met; or I should put it in this way. For the past few days after you left my life, all I thought of was all the past memories.. All those happy happy stuffs.. Those are the only few things that came popping up my mind. I couldn't recall automatically those bad stuffs.

Broke down on Thursday's afternoon. Cried and cried in the bathroom while bathing. It felt good, really.. Kinda relieve, really..
At the moment, I really miss you alot, really love you alot, really.. Those messages are sent without the intention from my mind but from my heart. Hmm.. Understand? It means that I sent them from my heart without listening to my brain.. Aiyoh, is like..
Brain: Don't send! You would only disgrace yourself & make him step all over your pride!
Heart: No.. I really feel like sending. I have to send! It hurts! It really hurts!
Yea, hahas.. This is kinda the 'war' between my brain & heart.
So lei, I still sent it out. Yea, I really hate everything!
But I hate you because I love you too much..

You had hurt me alot alot, really..
After crying & everything, went to bed & felt so sick.. So fell asleep.
You didn't keep to your promise and reply what you should reply..
Well, I guess time really will heal. I don't know my feelings now but so far, IF I AM NOT LYING TO MYSELF WHICH I DON'T KNOW TOO, I don't feel too much of sadness & heartbroken.. All I am worried about now is.. Yea, you should know, Kelvin should know too.. Hahas!
Kelvin ah Kelvin~ Maybe I really do treat you as someone I could trust already I guess? Even though I always told Scott that you guys are his friends and not mine, but I think you are the only friend of his that I trust already.
Rong Jun was one of the person I trust but that was IN THE PAST already. It was only you & him who knew that news last time & now, only you know. I really hope you won't break my trust, really.. I really do treat you as my friend already.. Well, be proud ^^ Because I seldom treat guys as real friend. ^^

Hais.. Just had a dream just now. Dreamt that Scott was in my house BUT he was with one of his ex.
Actually he didn't know about this, but I had heard rumours out there before that he was just toying with me. That was months ago though.. I never belief them, really.. Even though I might be saying sarcastic words everytime, But I don't believe them at all.. But now, I really don't know.

I really never want to quarrel even after we ended up like this. I called & messaged you everytime peacefully but you was the one who always make it till so bad.
I couldn't understand, when you was with me, you didn't want to go out. You spent the whole afternoon & morning sleeping.. You don't even wants to go to Compass Point with me. However, you can go running around with your friends.
Maybe Kelvin is wrong.. Hahas, Gosh, I am crying again~
Maybe Kelvin is wrong.. I am not the one that you love & treasure most. To you, it doesn't matters whether am I there or not.. Really..
Do you know that you really broke my heart? You are the guy that I love & treasured the most but.. Hahas.. I guess this is retribution for me. I didn't know how to treasure my exs in the past & now, I am in love with someone who doesn't know how to treasure me..

All are lies.. Your forever are lies.. Your 10, 20 years are lies.. Your happy family are lies..
You asked me to believe in forever, you asked me to believe in 10, 20 years, you asked me to believe in happy family, you asked me to believe you..
But you don't even believe in them!
You knew about my family. You knew that I don't trust in relationship. You asked me to believe in you but why must you lie to me?
After 7 months of being together & almost 2/3 of it, we were sticking together everyday. After 7 months of being together and going through so many & even things that some don't go through, you still don't understand me..

Well, I guess this isn't a fairytale world so I won't be having a fairytale love. Time will heal, really.. After everything is done, I really will be ok..
I am already starting to heal, really.. You can put down a relationship easily doesn't mean I can. So why must I blame you for not loving me as much as I do to you? I really think it through already.. I really grow up already.
Jervis's birthday is coming soon..
I guess I will be ok soon. really.. As long as you don't pissed me off again. Teehee!!

Just talk to mum & was planning about Baby's birthday! OMG! Hahas! can't imagine Baby's face when he saw the cake!
The only few things that kept me alive still even after it & now again are both my brothers.
Well, you used to be one of the reasons that kept me alive especially before & after June.. Teehee.. Would you be my reason again? Just wondering..

But well, this time it is different already isn't it? Both of us deleted everything already. never mind never mind ^^ Time won't wait for us to be sad!
I wonder how long will it take for me to forget you~ I just hope this get settles fast & life will start getting normal for me again~ and for you too..
I love myself when I am not pissed with you. Because this is the only time when I am calm & think well..
I don't hate you, really. I am not that kind of girl who will harm other. Really. I can't even kill an ant, please~ But you are really the 1st person who can make me go so crazy man!
Crazy baby~ ahahas!

Yea, new day new life! Yawn, I am getting hungry!

Labels: Teehee.. When then can I forget man

11/12/2010 03:57:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

Everyone in Singapore should have at least heard of the gang 369. Its just a name created by some gangsters who roamed the streets to identify themselves and try to make everyone scared of them. They even expanded and multiplied by recruiting school dropouts or some old Uncles who have tatoo all over the body just like Micheal Scoffield from Prison Break. Maybe they can recruit Christopher Lee soon.

Now, let me reveal to you the darkest secrets of the gang 369, and how they were formed.

Long before our times (or some of our times), there were 6 good buddies who played and grew up together. All of them had a common trait. They were all dropouts from school. They would always get together to play to eat and even to sleep together. Soon, they were so attached to each other that they have formed a sort of brotherly bond.

As soon as they hit their teenage years, they started roaming the streets. And they soon found out the dirty little business that were running in Geylang. They wanted to have a go at it, but they realized that the services there of cause, required a little fee. Broke they were, but they managed to find themselves a job serving Coffee at some old coffeeshops. After a month of hard work, they could finally get their hands on some cash. They got together and happily travelled to their destination, to accomplish a common goal that all of them had.

Upon reaching their desired destination, they quickly rushed to the nearest chick there was and got their hands on her. But as soon as they were ready to bring the chick to a nearby hotel, they were stopped by a group of gangsters which are more popularly known as "Ah bengs". This group of "Ah bengs" had named themselves AST, which is well knowned as Ang Shun Tong. But what others did not know was AST actually has another meaning. It means A Sex Triad. These group of people stopped the 6 great buddies from entering their territory as they were afraid that the buddies were trying to fight for their territory.

So they taught them a lesson and brutally beat the 6 buddies up. They extorted money from them, but only managed to get a mediocre sum from them. So they decided to throw them all into a Gay street and were forced to be engaged in sexual activity with them. After several nights, they managed to escape Hell and got far away from that place with tattered clothes on them. The 6 of them decided to take revenge and to grow stronger in order to fight back.

A few days after the escape, they still could not come up with an idea. But the 6 of them were growing hornier as time passes. This time they could hold no longer and had to perform sexual activities on each other to ease their urge. Miraculously, the favourite position that the 6 of them liked was the 69 position! After that intimate session, they all came up with an idea, just like AST. They decided to call themselves 369, which stood for Three 69 positions. Having created the foundation, they all now needed manpower to overcome the overwhelming power of AST. So, they spent nights recruiting anyone that suited their criteria, one who knows the 69 position. Very soon, they got up an army of gangsters and fought the AST to retrive their honour. They won gracefully and owned the whole of Geylang.

The society has now grown much smaller as there are lesser Gays in this country. And they soon resorted to recruit and school dropouts and old Uncles who sit in coffeeshop, drinking beer and doing nothing else.
Everyone knows about 369, BUT THE GREAT X KNOWS ABOUT THEIR HISTORY AND REVEALS IT TO YOU NOW.


Copied from http://gen-life.blogspot.com/2007/06/secrets-of-369_30.html

Labels: http://gen-life.blogspot.com/2007/06/secrets-of-369_30.html

11/11/2010 07:18:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

我無法幫妳預言
求委曲全有沒有用
可是我多麼不捨
朋友愛的那麼苦痛

愛可以不問對錯
至少要喜悅感動
如果他總為別人撐傘
妳何苦非為他等在雨中

泡咖啡讓妳暖手
想擋擋妳心口裡的風
妳卻想上街走走
吹吹冷風會清醒的多

妳說妳不怕分手
只有一點遺憾難過
情人節就要來了
剩自己一個
其實愛對了人
情人節每天都過

分手快樂　祝妳快樂
妳可以找到更好的
不想過冬　厭倦沉重
就飛去熱帶的島嶼游泳

分手快樂　請妳快樂
揮別錯的才能和對的相逢
離開舊愛　像坐慢車
看透徹了心就會是晴朗的

沒人能把誰的幸福沒收
妳發誓妳會活的有笑容
妳自信時候真的美多了


It seems that after so many years, I still love this song alot. Though it can't be compared to another song.
After 7months & 23days of being together, we ended up like this again. Well, maybe this is fate? Already kinda been expecting it.

Sincerly, I really thank you for the past few months. Really..
Too much words to be express. Anyway, didn't plan to inform anyone this time.
Time will heal, won't it? Life still goes on without you.
The are so many differences between you & my exs.
I am left with nothing but BIG trouble now & you chose to leave now. Well, I thought I met someone different but it is still the same.
I am not trying to say you are bad or what, am just kinda.. complaining to myself. Laughing at myself.

Anyway, good luck in your life, really. I will try to solve those problem myself. Will really try. I used to love you & I believe this will continue until I met another person again.

Labels: Take care.

11/10/2010 06:54:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

Those that are cunning;
aren't scary.
Those that appears innocent;
then are.

-BuzzingBee-

Poh Hong
Mostly known as Bee instead. The one that goes Buzzing and not Crying.
5th July
Proud Cancerian

-BuzzingBee-