Tuesday, August 31, 2010
一根草一点露
为了要有人照顾
明明知道是没前途
偏偏走上坏仔路
请你别跟我讲道理
三句话就要令伯醒
我也不知是为什么
有人说这是为兄弟
少年按作你中内伤
是不是你要做英雄
为什么你按昵款憨
你明明知道是行不通
你的brother叫你兄弟
为兄弟你该不怕死
哪是说你来中大事
你家的父母谁来饲
为了要有人照顾
明明知道是没前途
偏偏走上坏仔路
请你别跟我讲道理
三句话就要令伯醒
我也不知是为什么
有人说这是为兄弟
少年按作你中内伤
是不是你要做英雄
为什么你按昵款憨
你明明知道是行不通
你的brother叫你兄弟
为兄弟你该不怕死
哪是说你来中大事
你家的父母谁来饲
Labels: Read in hokkien
8/31/2010 08:26:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
01. Does ur name have an 'a'?
Strictly say , no ^o^
02. Two of your dominant feelings at the moment?
Total boredness & hunger.
03. What are you listening to right now?
迷魂香 - hokkien song.
04. Part of song lyric that's in your mind right now?
你的brother叫你兄弟 , 为兄弟你该不怕死 . 哪是说你来中大事 , 你家的父母谁来饲?
05. Describe where you are right now?
In my living room , on the floor .
06. What is your best day of the week?
This week ? I don't know ? when im with him & he ain't throwing temper .
07. What are you craving to have right now?
Chocolate cake . cake as in CAKE and not SHIT .
08. Best memory of childhood?
When my whole family goes swimming .
09. Worst memory of childhood?
That fateful day .
10. Are you happy?
Now? don't know ? normal .
11. Your three plans for tomorrow?
Mac breakfast , leaving the house & if possible , drinking ? *doubt possible*
12. Your three plans for today?
going for the training which I turn up LATE , eating dinner with Scotty & going home early . And the 1st two NEVER happen ! fuck
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
Yes .
14. Do you party?
Soon .
15. Do you like twins?
Guess so ^^ imagine the pranks we can play
16. Fill in the blank: I am ____ .
Very pissed off . fuck u la cb ! go find other girl la cb !
17. Say something to the person who sent you tis?
I do this because im bored .
18. Mary has her little lamb. What do you have?
I have my precious blanket
19. Say anything to whoever is reading your answer?
I am hungry
20. What do you drink?
Plain water & icey milo-y
21. Are you in love?
Pathetically still in
22. What kind of girl/boy do you like?
Don know la !
23. Any last Request?
nothing lA !
Strictly say , no ^o^
02. Two of your dominant feelings at the moment?
Total boredness & hunger.
03. What are you listening to right now?
迷魂香 - hokkien song.
04. Part of song lyric that's in your mind right now?
你的brother叫你兄弟 , 为兄弟你该不怕死 . 哪是说你来中大事 , 你家的父母谁来饲?
05. Describe where you are right now?
In my living room , on the floor .
06. What is your best day of the week?
This week ? I don't know ? when im with him & he ain't throwing temper .
07. What are you craving to have right now?
Chocolate cake . cake as in CAKE and not SHIT .
08. Best memory of childhood?
When my whole family goes swimming .
09. Worst memory of childhood?
That fateful day .
10. Are you happy?
Now? don't know ? normal .
11. Your three plans for tomorrow?
Mac breakfast , leaving the house & if possible , drinking ? *doubt possible*
12. Your three plans for today?
going for the training which I turn up LATE , eating dinner with Scotty & going home early . And the 1st two NEVER happen ! fuck
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
Yes .
14. Do you party?
Soon .
15. Do you like twins?
Guess so ^^ imagine the pranks we can play
16. Fill in the blank: I am ____ .
Very pissed off . fuck u la cb ! go find other girl la cb !
17. Say something to the person who sent you tis?
I do this because im bored .
18. Mary has her little lamb. What do you have?
I have my precious blanket
19. Say anything to whoever is reading your answer?
I am hungry
20. What do you drink?
Plain water & icey milo-y
21. Are you in love?
Pathetically still in
22. What kind of girl/boy do you like?
Don know la !
23. Any last Request?
nothing lA !
Labels: fuck
8/31/2010 07:58:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Monday, August 30, 2010
这几天 ，我一口气便有幸尝到这些感觉 。
- 首先是无法说出口的爱 。看着他 ，心就会跳好快 ；想不到已经那么久了可是每当看到他时 ，就好像刚刚认识 。感觉好开心 ，好庆幸 。满满的快乐 。
- 然后便是无法说出口的气 。对着他无理的说辞 ，无缘无故的冤枉和无法原谅的侮辱 。自己只能无言以对 。因为自己明白自己是说不过他的 。所以只能打落牙齿和血吞 。
- 可是当他又轻声细语地哄我时 ，对他又是无法说出口的疼惜 ，怜惜 。尤其是望着他睡觉时的撒娇 ；他哄我时的傻笑和他看着我时的疼爱 。
- 在后来便是无法说出口的害怕和担心 。害怕他会出事 ，担心他会惹事 。害怕他的冲动 ，担心他的好胜 。但是他却不知道我的心思 ，不知道我为了他留了多少泪 ，因为他不在我身边 。这也是一种无法说出口的无奈吧 ？自己知道 ，自己的人虽然在家里但是灵魂却时时刻刻跟着他 。
- 到如今 ，心里满满是无法说出口的歉意 。亲爱的 ，我不是不知道你为了我做了多少事 。我不是不知道这最近我把你害得有多惨 。我不是不知道你有多烦恼 。你每次什么都不要和我分享 。亲爱的 ，我说了好多好多次 - I am not your girlfriend for fun & enjoyment . I am not being with you just to enjoy the love that you give to me . I am here to not only share your joy but your troubles & burdens ! Why can't you understand that I am not like those girls who are like what Mdm Eng says " Being sweet & lovely when everything is fine but sour & bitter & finally leaving when troubles start brewing ." . I know how much burden , how much troubles I brought to you , I know & I understand .
又想要哭了 。亲爱的 ，我答应自己了 。If everything goes smoothly , I will know what to do . I love you .
Labels: No one loves to be a burden ..
8/30/2010 04:23:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Friday, August 27, 2010
Ok , just came back from RM & just ate finish .. fine , it isn't a just but came back from RM & ate finish .
Whatever .
yea , went RM buy Mac for me & bro while Pig continues sleeping . Saw a bunch of i-don-wana-see people slacking near there . avoid troubles so walk another way . fine , im gutless .
then aft buying , walk back & saw DarryLim . went over & say "hi , is that your friend? handsome worx"
then asked him to acc me walk the shorter way which is also where those i-don-wana-see pple are slacking at . and this heartless guy say "no" . wth ?
then nvm ^^ said bye & walk another way but isn't the shortest way neither the longer way . don uds ? ur business .
ate & stare at com . signed in to Facebook to play game & there is this bugger who talked to me ytd and today . totally bug-ness man !
asked me to go up his house to know each other better & i replied ' yea , know each other better in bed huh ?' then didnt bother to reply him anymore . and i didn't even want to talk to him in the 1st place , keep never reply & he can continues talking . irritating .
then nvm . after not replying him , he said " eh sorry , just now was my friend talking . he paikia ."
then isaid " ahahas ! paikia ?! ahahas ! he got play ah ?"
and he said "not convenient to say"
like wtf ?
So i asked him whether he know what is 'k' and he tel me dono -.-
so i have to spell it out & he goes " you want to buy "
wtf ? wtf ? wtf ?
then he said " wa you ahlian . i don like ah lian"
and know what i replied ? " you don't like then don't like . none of my business too" nice reply ah !
then ithink he no face anymore because he just said " then nvm."
i replied "ok"
and he del me from facebook !!!
ahahas ! song ah !
feel like complaining him to Scotty ^^ then can see Scotty's reaction .
I love to see his reaction towards jealousy & protective TOWARDS me !!!
Whatever .
yea , went RM buy Mac for me & bro while Pig continues sleeping . Saw a bunch of i-don-wana-see people slacking near there . avoid troubles so walk another way . fine , im gutless .
then aft buying , walk back & saw DarryLim . went over & say "hi , is that your friend? handsome worx"
then asked him to acc me walk the shorter way which is also where those i-don-wana-see pple are slacking at . and this heartless guy say "no" . wth ?
then nvm ^^ said bye & walk another way but isn't the shortest way neither the longer way . don uds ? ur business .
ate & stare at com . signed in to Facebook to play game & there is this bugger who talked to me ytd and today . totally bug-ness man !
asked me to go up his house to know each other better & i replied ' yea , know each other better in bed huh ?' then didnt bother to reply him anymore . and i didn't even want to talk to him in the 1st place , keep never reply & he can continues talking . irritating .
then nvm . after not replying him , he said " eh sorry , just now was my friend talking . he paikia ."
then isaid " ahahas ! paikia ?! ahahas ! he got play ah ?"
and he said "not convenient to say"
like wtf ?
So i asked him whether he know what is 'k' and he tel me dono -.-
so i have to spell it out & he goes " you want to buy "
wtf ? wtf ? wtf ?
then he said " wa you ahlian . i don like ah lian"
and know what i replied ? " you don't like then don't like . none of my business too" nice reply ah !
then ithink he no face anymore because he just said " then nvm."
i replied "ok"
and he del me from facebook !!!
ahahas ! song ah !
feel like complaining him to Scotty ^^ then can see Scotty's reaction .
I love to see his reaction towards jealousy & protective TOWARDS me !!!
Labels: im in love
8/27/2010 04:22:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
See those Beautiful wordings above ? Muahahas !
Question : Guess where are they posted at ?
Answer : ScottSeoChitSeng's Facebook !!! muahahaha !
This is the good point of having one's account & password . You can post ANYTHING without them bothering !!! ahahas !
Went to Punggol Marina yesterday with Kelvin , Jeremy , Edwin & Scotty . They drank & I totally never touch a single drop . Know why ? Because I am having a sore throat .. assssshole .
Seriously damn so bored now !!! So so so bored !
This is the good point of having one's account & password . You can post ANYTHING without them bothering !!! ahahas !
Went to Punggol Marina yesterday with Kelvin , Jeremy , Edwin & Scotty . They drank & I totally never touch a single drop . Know why ? Because I am having a sore throat .. assssshole .
Seriously damn so bored now !!! So so so bored !
Labels: Monononster KILL
8/24/2010 04:20:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Felt so guilty for all the stuffs I'd done to Scotty .. Guess only he knows what I mean ?
Darling , you should know how easy it is for me to be guilty .
I know actually deep in your heart , you did blame me for dragging your life too . It is just that you didn't want to hurt my feelings or what so you denied .
But dear , I really really know what had I did unknowingly ..
Like I told you that time , I'll do what I am suppose to do when I know that I am suppose to do it . I love you
Darling , you should know how easy it is for me to be guilty .
I know actually deep in your heart , you did blame me for dragging your life too . It is just that you didn't want to hurt my feelings or what so you denied .
But dear , I really really know what had I did unknowingly ..
Like I told you that time , I'll do what I am suppose to do when I know that I am suppose to do it . I love you
Labels: so cold
8/21/2010 12:48:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Friday, August 20, 2010
Every minute is a torture from waiting ..
Labels: Please be safe .
8/20/2010 12:22:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Spent a 'wealthy' day yesterday . Went to Sakae for brunch with Scotty . Went to Jack's place for dinner with Scotty & his ladies . Went to Kovan Pub with Scotty , Edwin , Jeremy & Valerie .
Fight happened in the pub ! Fight that involve WEAPONS & my LOVER and people that I KNOW ! Fuck you man ! Didn't I warn you not to start the ball rolling !
Currently am being so scared now .
Do you know the feeling of being wake up when you was dreaming .
And the person whom woke you up is your lover & he told you that :" I need to go down now because of what happen yesterday . The big shots are informed & I don't know what'll happen ." And all you did was just stare at him shocked .
And when you starts to get so involved with the news & wanted to follow him FOR THE FIRST TIME , he told you that you can't .
After that , what he did was just walking around the house & changing his cloths . You just followed him no matter where he goes to & your mind is blank .
Before he goes out , you hug him & held back your tears . You told him to becareful & be safe . He told you that :" You should had expect this since you first know me . The moment I joined , I know this day will come ."
And all you can do is just watch him walk to the lift and go down .
And you bloody forget to tell him how much , how much you love him !
After he went out , you just search the whole house for a spare phone so that you can use to contact him .
While searching , your limbs are shivering & your palms are cold . Bascially , you just did everything wrong .
You close the drawer with your fingers still on it . You walk across the kictchen & nearly trip over . You went in the toilet and slipped . You walk to the bedroom and bang your toes on the bed frame . You choke while drinking water .
And finally , you found a spare phone & put your sim card in . When you on the phone , messages start spamming in . And you bloody recieve a message from your sister with a :" Save me" in chinese .
So while struggling to type a :" Be safe" message to your lover , you called your sister & she bloody didn't answer the phone .
So while waiting for your lover to reply you , you called your sister's lover & he too didn't know where is your sister .
So you just sat infront of the com & sign in to MSN & Facebook hoping to find your lover's friend . You called your lover's friend & he too didn't answer the phone .
Finally your sister called back & tell you that she is safe . Finally , the heavy feeling eased somehow .
And then your dad started to not answering the phone calls .
Total shag-ness now . And for this fucking post , it took me 1 hour plus to type out just simply because your fingers aren't listening to you .
Tears are coming and going back . The painful feeling of controlling your tears continues . I am so so tired , please be safe .
Really , please be safe & I love you ..
Fight happened in the pub ! Fight that involve WEAPONS & my LOVER and people that I KNOW ! Fuck you man ! Didn't I warn you not to start the ball rolling !
Currently am being so scared now .
Do you know the feeling of being wake up when you was dreaming .
And the person whom woke you up is your lover & he told you that :" I need to go down now because of what happen yesterday . The big shots are informed & I don't know what'll happen ." And all you did was just stare at him shocked .
And when you starts to get so involved with the news & wanted to follow him FOR THE FIRST TIME , he told you that you can't .
After that , what he did was just walking around the house & changing his cloths . You just followed him no matter where he goes to & your mind is blank .
Before he goes out , you hug him & held back your tears . You told him to becareful & be safe . He told you that :" You should had expect this since you first know me . The moment I joined , I know this day will come ."
And all you can do is just watch him walk to the lift and go down .
And you bloody forget to tell him how much , how much you love him !
After he went out , you just search the whole house for a spare phone so that you can use to contact him .
While searching , your limbs are shivering & your palms are cold . Bascially , you just did everything wrong .
You close the drawer with your fingers still on it . You walk across the kictchen & nearly trip over . You went in the toilet and slipped . You walk to the bedroom and bang your toes on the bed frame . You choke while drinking water .
And finally , you found a spare phone & put your sim card in . When you on the phone , messages start spamming in . And you bloody recieve a message from your sister with a :" Save me" in chinese .
So while struggling to type a :" Be safe" message to your lover , you called your sister & she bloody didn't answer the phone .
So while waiting for your lover to reply you , you called your sister's lover & he too didn't know where is your sister .
So you just sat infront of the com & sign in to MSN & Facebook hoping to find your lover's friend . You called your lover's friend & he too didn't answer the phone .
Finally your sister called back & tell you that she is safe . Finally , the heavy feeling eased somehow .
And then your dad started to not answering the phone calls .
Total shag-ness now . And for this fucking post , it took me 1 hour plus to type out just simply because your fingers aren't listening to you .
Tears are coming and going back . The painful feeling of controlling your tears continues . I am so so tired , please be safe .
Really , please be safe & I love you ..
Labels: I love you, Please be safe
8/19/2010 11:30:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Please be safe . Since you know that I couldn't go with you , you shouldn't wake me up from my beautiful dreams & inform me .
Please be safe . You jolly well know that I would want to follow you so you shouldn't throw the bait out & pull it back before I get to bite it .
Please be safe . This is the first time I ever beg you to bring me together yet you denied me .
Please be safe . Things won't happen this way if you had just listen to me .
Labels: Please be safe
8/19/2010 10:39:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Went to Raffles yesterday. After that went over to the block near Compass.
Met up with Kelvin. Jeremy & Edwin with pau~
Then some fucking stuffs happen? Yea.. Nice one Kelvin^^ lols..
Hope nothing happen again?
Went over to Geylang for steamboat. Met up with Edwin & Jeremy over there as the bike-ed there?
Had so so so many seafood WITHOUT getting full at all! And there are so many cats=.=
And throughout the eating, it seems that I am the only one that is 'free of troubles'. hahas.
Everything ended peacefully somehow? hopefully? yea? *hungry now*
Then went over to Kovan. Pub-ed. They ordered a tower.
Was suppose to drink PLAIN WATER only, for me. But Drank few cups of beer without pau~ knowing.
Then played 5-10 with Kelvin, he won me-.-
Played dice with everyone & I am like.. so daring to open?
Pub boss came over & drank & played with us. Chatted awhile.
Get out of pub at ? time. Am drunk as usual-.-
And pau~ scolded me!!! fuck man~ ahahas! cabed home.
I am so hungry now but that stupid person don't want to wake up!!!
18th today ^^ teehee
Met up with Kelvin. Jeremy & Edwin with pau~
Then some fucking stuffs happen? Yea.. Nice one Kelvin^^ lols..
Hope nothing happen again?
Went over to Geylang for steamboat. Met up with Edwin & Jeremy over there as the bike-ed there?
Had so so so many seafood WITHOUT getting full at all! And there are so many cats=.=
And throughout the eating, it seems that I am the only one that is 'free of troubles'. hahas.
Everything ended peacefully somehow? hopefully? yea? *hungry now*
Then went over to Kovan. Pub-ed. They ordered a tower.
Was suppose to drink PLAIN WATER only, for me. But Drank few cups of beer without pau~ knowing.
Then played 5-10 with Kelvin, he won me-.-
Played dice with everyone & I am like.. so daring to open?
Pub boss came over & drank & played with us. Chatted awhile.
Get out of pub at ? time. Am drunk as usual-.-
And pau~ scolded me!!! fuck man~ ahahas! cabed home.
I am so hungry now but that stupid person don't want to wake up!!!
18th today ^^ teehee
Labels: 18th (exclaimation mark) ogosh
8/18/2010 12:01:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Friday, August 13, 2010
Tired but can't sleep at all .. Something is just keeping me awake . I know the reason but I don't want to admit it ! Can I just don't bother about it ?! I want to get drunk once again , after MONTHS !
Labels: 我以为你是真的爱我
8/13/2010 02:04:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Some people are just plain so innocent . They thought that they could change to a Phoenix from a Chicken just because they start to hang with a different type of people . But what they didn't know is that , Once a Chicken , forever a Chicken .
Labels: Ugly ugly ..
8/13/2010 01:51:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Woke up early early because I slept early early . Yawn , kinda regret not going out .. hahas .. Wonder when will I get to go out again ? Damn so fucking hungry man . Ros they all having fasting so can't go eat . Ting is sleeping so can't eat . Yawn !!! Is this what they mean that , when you need someone , there aren't any ? AHAHAS ! -.-
有时候的不说话，是知道自己有错 ；无话可说
有时候的不说话，是对方太灼灼逼人让自己 ；无话可说
有时候的不说话，是不想要再争吵了所以选择沉默 ；无话可说
有时候的不说话，是因为实在太高兴对方自己的在乎 ；无话可说
有时候的不说话，是因为实在太伤心对方如此对待自己 ；无话可说
有时候的不说话，也是最可怕的不说话，是放弃了，绝望了。知道无论如何，再说也无妨了，没用了，所以选择安静 ；无话可说
所以记得 ，以后当对方无话可说时 ，不要继续滔滔不绝地继续说 ，而是要停下来看一下对方所表现出来的信息 。不要误会或扭曲了对方的表情或动作或言语 ，因为只有在此时 ，误会或扭曲所带来的后果是不堪设想的 。
Labels: 真的不知道自己到底要怎样 ，不知道你要怎样
8/12/2010 06:10:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
你没有打过来 。
就连现在的你 ，对于现在的我 ，把说过的事也不当一回事 。
Ala ! I want shit and bombing is fun ! ahahas ! wanna play again .
Dota is NOT fun when the opponents are insane !!!
就连现在的你 ，对于现在的我 ，把说过的事也不当一回事 。
Ala ! I want shit and bombing is fun ! ahahas ! wanna play again .
Dota is NOT fun when the opponents are insane !!!
Labels: Busy busy day
8/11/2010 10:19:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Cruel Temptation/Temptation of Wives seems like a nice show . Love the song .
I Cannot Forgive by Cha Soo Kyung
왜 너는나를 만나서
为什么你要遇见我
왜 나를 아프게만해
为什么你带给我的全是伤痛
내 모든걸 다 주는데
我为你付出了所有
왜 날울리니
但为什么你回报给我的全是眼泪
니가 나에 상처 준만큼
因为你伤害了我
다시돌려줄거야
所以我要重生
나쁜여자라고 하지마
不是叫我坏女人
용서못해
因为你让人无法饶恕
잔인한 인연은 사랑같아
残忍的缘分像爱一般
길이 아닌데
那不是属于我们的未来之路
가다가 멈출 수는 없어
有时这段路会让我们无法刹车
사랑끝에 후회가 찾아오면
如果爱情结束之时会感到后悔
비로서 남는건 미움뿐
那爱情给我们的就只有怨恨
사랑해달라 애원을 할때
当爱情需要哀求时
마음이 떠나
那原来的那颗心已经渐行渐远
차디찬 눈빛이 싫었어
我讨厌那冰冷的目光
그마음이 끌리는
被那颗心牵引的你
그대 살 또다른 유혹
还会遇上
있을테니
另一段诱惑
사랑이뭔데 숨죽여가며
爱是什么 它会让人窒息
변해가는 널
难道我还曾经想过抓住
잡고싶었을까
那个变化莫测的你吗
왜 너는나를 만나서
为什么你要遇见我
왜 나를 아프게만해
为什么你带给我的全是伤痛
내 모든걸 다 주는데
我为你付出了所有
왜 날울리니
但为什么你回报给我的全是眼泪
니가 나에 상처 준만큼
因为你伤害了我
다시돌려줄거야
所以我要重生
나쁜여자라고 하지마
不是叫我坏女人
용서못해
因为你让人无法饶恕
I Cannot Forgive by Cha Soo Kyung
为什么你要遇见我
왜 나를 아프게만해
为什么你带给我的全是伤痛
내 모든걸 다 주는데
我为你付出了所有
왜 날울리니
但为什么你回报给我的全是眼泪
니가 나에 상처 준만큼
因为你伤害了我
다시돌려줄거야
所以我要重生
나쁜여자라고 하지마
不是叫我坏女人
용서못해
因为你让人无法饶恕
잔인한 인연은 사랑같아
残忍的缘分像爱一般
길이 아닌데
那不是属于我们的未来之路
가다가 멈출 수는 없어
有时这段路会让我们无法刹车
사랑끝에 후회가 찾아오면
如果爱情结束之时会感到后悔
비로서 남는건 미움뿐
那爱情给我们的就只有怨恨
사랑해달라 애원을 할때
当爱情需要哀求时
마음이 떠나
那原来的那颗心已经渐行渐远
차디찬 눈빛이 싫었어
我讨厌那冰冷的目光
그마음이 끌리는
被那颗心牵引的你
그대 살 또다른 유혹
还会遇上
있을테니
另一段诱惑
사랑이뭔데 숨죽여가며
爱是什么 它会让人窒息
변해가는 널
难道我还曾经想过抓住
잡고싶었을까
那个变化莫测的你吗
왜 너는나를 만나서
为什么你要遇见我
왜 나를 아프게만해
为什么你带给我的全是伤痛
내 모든걸 다 주는데
我为你付出了所有
왜 날울리니
但为什么你回报给我的全是眼泪
니가 나에 상처 준만큼
因为你伤害了我
다시돌려줄거야
所以我要重生
나쁜여자라고 하지마
不是叫我坏女人
용서못해
因为你让人无法饶恕
8/10/2010 08:05:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Oyea , yesterday accidentally disturb
Like normally , when people starestare at them , they will start to fightfight , scoldscold etcetc . Yet when it comes to their princess , they are just simply oh-so-sweet ! Even more sweetsweet then honey . Yea ! You can really fucking see the difference man ! Like for a moment , they are quarreling with someone but the moment they turn their heads & see their princess , their face will go so gentlegentle ! It is like
Notice the different faces & the directions ? Yea ! Totally opposite man !
Couldn't remember heard from who but recently , there was someone who wrote in a blog(?) with a topic "Gangster falling in love with a JC/Poly girl" .. If I remember correctly , I laughed at that time . But thinking of it yesterday , it is kinda wrong to laugh .
You can be such a big fuck GUY in life , creating fear among everyone whenever you goes . You can go around beating up people who goes against you . You can do every fuck up stuffs with everyone excluding family la .
But when it comes to the girl that you like , can you treat her in the same way ? I mean , look at Domoji(?) from Meteor Garden ! Gosh ! He is so fuck up , gangster ? Not really but He DO creates fear among everyone & he is fucking rich . He can basically use money to buy everything . But when he met Tsukushi(?) , he can't do anything too !
He willing get beaten up for her , goes against his mum for her & everything . He changes his attitude & started to respect people as human , although not much . But for her , he changed !
You can be a gangster , a fucker to everyone but when it comes to your <3>
Haiz .. Sighing for ? Don't know ..
Had pretty dreams yesterday night but couldn't remember what did I dreamt of .. Awww .. urge of going out is getting stronger .. Need MS urgently .. -.- do library's comp have MS ?
Had pretty dreams yesterday night but couldn't remember what did I dreamt of .. Awww .. urge of going out is getting stronger .. Need MS urgently .. -.- do library's comp have MS ?
Labels: Aww .. MS MS MS
8/10/2010 07:03:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
On the road of recoveries *is there even this word instead of recovery?* .
Yea , though am having occasional of ache-ing & sore throat , other than that , getting better .. Hope so ?
Going to look for job again . And this time , it will really be with a serious attitude already . awww .. And my appetite became so so so tiny ! Fuck ! Is that even a good news ? Doubt so .. If my appetite turns little , it can only mean that I can only eat LITTLE ! fuck ! zzz .. must train back my stomach .
Till then .. And Scott Seo ! Good luck on your 1st day of work ! I am so so happy for you , really ! ^^ Must work hard & earn a billion before 21 ? LOL .. impossible .
Yea , though am having occasional of ache-ing & sore throat , other than that , getting better .. Hope so ?
Going to look for job again . And this time , it will really be with a serious attitude already . awww .. And my appetite became so so so tiny ! Fuck ! Is that even a good news ? Doubt so .. If my appetite turns little , it can only mean that I can only eat LITTLE ! fuck ! zzz .. must train back my stomach .
Till then .. And Scott Seo ! Good luck on your 1st day of work ! I am so so happy for you , really ! ^^ Must work hard & earn a billion before 21 ? LOL .. impossible .
Labels: Moving on moving on
8/10/2010 06:54:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Monday, August 9, 2010
Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
Saw this post at someone's blog so decide to copy paste here .. Teared up while reading it ..
Guess am still sick ? Feel like vomiting , body still aching & I can't sleep totally ! Slept too much in the day ! gosh , sleeping pills or not ? zzz
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
Saw this post at someone's blog so decide to copy paste here .. Teared up while reading it ..
Guess am still sick ? Feel like vomiting , body still aching & I can't sleep totally ! Slept too much in the day ! gosh , sleeping pills or not ? zzz
Labels: hurts ., Tearing up without you by my side
8/09/2010 12:45:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Saturday, August 7, 2010
So damn bloody sleepy . And guess what , I am still watching show despite being so damn bloody sick !
And mum isn't coming in the end .. poor me ? I am sick yet no one take care of me .. hahas .. I hate to be sick & I am starving like fuck !
If anyone ever says that I am always hungry & always eating , I will definitly fuck that person upside down & left right center ! I AM FUCKING STARVING FROM NOT EATING FOR DAYS !
And mum isn't coming in the end .. poor me ? I am sick yet no one take care of me .. hahas .. I hate to be sick & I am starving like fuck !
If anyone ever says that I am always hungry & always eating , I will definitly fuck that person upside down & left right center ! I AM FUCKING STARVING FROM NOT EATING FOR DAYS !
Labels: freezing
8/07/2010 09:59:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Even if you don't mean it or simply said that just because you was drunk or even more ridiculously ; said that because you think that I am being way too long-winded , but this sentence is enough to erase all of the hurt that you had bestowed to me despite you not knowing it . Well , I guess that sentence was really an accident . Never mind , I don't blame you .
And I am awfully sorry for all those previous posts that I had posted . You are right , would anyone care about thinking in between the lines ? No one will . So yea , I am sorry for the uses of accusation words on you .
I am so bloody sick now ! gosh ! can the rain stop falling because I feel so damn cold ! And guess what , I had been going on a 'diet' for 4/5 days ! eating nothing but pieces of breads ! fuck ! damn fucking hungry & damn fucking sick !
Labels: can we still keep in contact, I miss you still but I know my limits . hehe .. so yea
8/07/2010 09:46:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Thursday, August 5, 2010
你知道吗 ，我好想你
Labels: Sick
8/05/2010 01:32:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Feeling so unwell now.. Giddiness, fever & even feel like vomiting! Just stuffed myself with pieces of breads & feel even more like vomiting man! Body don't feel like mine, pain.
Totally don't feel like eating medicines. Totally don't feel like going to see doctor. Great, dad just forced me to eat my medicines & can't throw them away because he was staring at me=.-
Guess this doesn't change right? I still hates to eat medicines.. The only time I ate my medicines willing was only at that time..
Gosh, I feel like lazy? Totally don't feel like moving at all. Brother just went out of the house to school, dad mopping the floor. As for me this NOBEL patient, I am sitting in front of the computer &typing blogging .
I want to bath man! Maybe going to bath after dad went out. Then if really don't have the choice, might visit the polyclinic. aww~ I feel so sick man! Feel like sleeping but I can't sleep at all. Slept too much PLUS I am so sticky now. OMG? I am yawning..
Why isn't anyone online?!!! I am so damn bloody bored. If it wasn't because of not feeling well, I will long be out of the house lo.. Haiz.. going to job-hunt again..
AHAHAS! I found a song that suits what I am feeling now!!!
You spin my head round & round~ You know? round & round & round!!!
Can anyone talk to me? I am so so so bored.
觉得好辛苦阿 ，需要一直装作自己没事 。
好想好想你 。非常笨吧 ？
忽然间在想 ，我是不是该试多一次 ？可是 ，好难 。
Totally don't feel like eating medicines. Totally don't feel like going to see doctor. Great, dad just forced me to eat my medicines & can't throw them away because he was staring at me=.-
Guess this doesn't change right? I still hates to eat medicines.. The only time I ate my medicines willing was only at that time..
Gosh, I feel like lazy? Totally don't feel like moving at all. Brother just went out of the house to school, dad mopping the floor. As for me this NOBEL patient, I am sitting in front of the computer &
I want to bath man! Maybe going to bath after dad went out. Then if really don't have the choice, might visit the polyclinic. aww~ I feel so sick man! Feel like sleeping but I can't sleep at all. Slept too much PLUS I am so sticky now. OMG? I am yawning..
Why isn't anyone online?!!! I am so damn bloody bored. If it wasn't because of not feeling well, I will long be out of the house lo.. Haiz.. going to job-hunt again..
AHAHAS! I found a song that suits what I am feeling now!!!
You spin my head round & round~ You know? round & round & round!!!
Can anyone talk to me? I am so so so bored.
觉得好辛苦阿 ，需要一直装作自己没事 。
好想好想你 。非常笨吧 ？
忽然间在想 ，我是不是该试多一次 ？可是 ，好难 。
Labels: And I feel as though I am sitting in the Teapot and Cups (You spin my head round and round)
8/05/2010 06:50:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
8/05/2010 05:38:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
下弦月星满天
像谁泪涟涟
一阵风一首歌摇晃思念
只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言离别
在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
一颗心一种病不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结
有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
刚下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
下弦月星满天像谁泪涟涟
她微笑她捧花都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言
在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
看倔强带幸福越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切
有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
我站在柳絮扎眼寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然沉默泪流
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
像谁泪涟涟
一阵风一首歌摇晃思念
只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言离别
在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
一颗心一种病不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结
有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
刚下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
下弦月星满天像谁泪涟涟
她微笑她捧花都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言
在春天过冬天张眼睛冬眠
看倔强带幸福越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切
有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
我站在柳絮扎眼寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然沉默泪流
独唱情歌最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和你手
8/05/2010 05:35:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
I am sick ..
Sick with a bloody fever .
That kind of sick that requires me to visit a DOCTOR & not a COUNSELOR .
So ehem , you don't think too much la -.- tell you I sick & you say I heartbroken .
This is different !
Officially slept for 45hours straight ! Cool right ?
Didn't ate anything at all for like more than 45hours ? Woa !
And I can't sleep now . zzz . Dad was like scolding me because I am sick ?
And I am sadly drenching in perspiration .
Feel like bathing now .. saded ..
Currently falling deeply in love with this song titled : 独唱情歌 ..
Can sing till cry man , saded !
hahas ..
And Kiat & Kok sot ? They are spamming me one by one-.- call & kup , call & kup
Message them asking Funny ? And both reply at the same time funny .
wth ? hahas ..
Feel so giddy .. gosh ..
不是说好要放手了吗 ？为什么我却一直想起你 ？
既然你已经不再爱我 ；不再想我了 ，为什么还要打给我 ？
为什么要假装自己还是关心我的 ？你是害怕我会做傻事对吗 ？所以才回打来看看我还活着吗 ？
我不喜欢这样你知道吗 ！你不能这样伤害我 ！
我不要你可怜我 。我不要你同情我 。
Sick with a bloody fever .
That kind of sick that requires me to visit a DOCTOR & not a COUNSELOR .
So ehem , you don't think too much la -.- tell you I sick & you say I heartbroken .
This is different !
Officially slept for 45hours straight ! Cool right ?
Didn't ate anything at all for like more than 45hours ? Woa !
And I can't sleep now . zzz . Dad was like scolding me because I am sick ?
And I am sadly drenching in perspiration .
Feel like bathing now .. saded ..
Currently falling deeply in love with this song titled : 独唱情歌 ..
Can sing till cry man , saded !
hahas ..
And Kiat & Kok sot ? They are spamming me one by one-.- call & kup , call & kup
Message them asking Funny ? And both reply at the same time funny .
wth ? hahas ..
Feel so giddy .. gosh ..
不是说好要放手了吗 ？为什么我却一直想起你 ？
既然你已经不再爱我 ；不再想我了 ，为什么还要打给我 ？
为什么要假装自己还是关心我的 ？你是害怕我会做傻事对吗 ？所以才回打来看看我还活着吗 ？
我不喜欢这样你知道吗 ！你不能这样伤害我 ！
我不要你可怜我 。我不要你同情我 。
Labels: 好想好想你
8/05/2010 05:23:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I have decided to change myself ! Oh yea !
In what sense ? I am not sure but definitly for the better ; to others
I gets so head-over-tail because of; you
You know how much how much did I love you; how much how much diffcult will it be for me if you are gone
But again & again, you hurt me
You said that I am a selfish girl who don't think for my own stead
You describe me as worthless
Well; this will be the last time I ever call you darling
Well darling, you know what, I am going to make sure that people will think that it is your stupidlity to lose me
Because of you; I will change for the better but not for you anymore
I love you still but like you said, this is part of us growing.
Bye & god bless u. 有缘再见. From today onwards, it will be my life. Thanks for leaving your prints in my memory
d(^_^)b
Labels: just another guy right but it hurts more than any other guy, Yea
8/04/2010 04:24:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
wuuhuuu~ im not thinkin/missin anyone/anythin nw!
wuuhuuu~ and that is because im... wahahahas.
iwan mac.
wuuhuuu~ and that is because im... wahahahas.
iwan mac.
Labels: 1st random
8/04/2010 04:18:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Looking through those courses & schools is making my neck sour~
Yawn, am sleeping but can't sleep.. Hmm, maybe going to polyclinic later on.
Try to get some sleeping pills..
And I want to go out today! need to find people out already.
Yawn~ bored
Yawn, am sleeping but can't sleep.. Hmm, maybe going to polyclinic later on.
Try to get some sleeping pills..
And I want to go out today! need to find people out already.
Yawn~ bored
Labels: Totally don't know what am I thinking
8/04/2010 03:55:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
好无聊啊！
Am having an one-sided chatting with Adele .. hehe ..
*you can no need reply ^^ I just need someone for my to type to .
*It feels as though the time stopped .
*Everything seems to be going so slowly .
*If the heart is touchable , I believe mine is being squeeze now ..
*It really hurts . The heart beats very fast .
*I can watch funny video , laugh laugh laugh and then suddenly cry ..
*Tears just come out by themselves .
*It hurts so much . Hurts more than any relationships I use to have .
*I see the sofa , I think of him .
*I see the kitchen , I think of him .
*I see the toiley , I think of him .
*Everything just fucking reminds me of him & him & him ..
*You know , I told him before that if we were ever to break , he will be the one losing out many .
*But until now then I know , the one who totally lost was me .
*I lost everything ..
*The few most important stuffs in my heart , I lost them .
*I just feel like walking to Compass Point , sit at the staircase , eating bread & maybe drinking beer & look at the sky .
*I can't sleep . Fucking can't sleep .
*But this time , I am really tired .
*I called him just now for the last time , he said that I am being too princess in the past , so I called him & ask him for the last time regarding whether will he regret .
*I thank him , asked him to take care & I hung up the phone ..
*I am tired but it really hurts .
*really damn fucking pain ..
*Done .. guess so ? Thanks for letting me flood your msn ^^
*Don't pity me or try to console me ah . You know it won't works on me ^^
*But really , I love you ^^ Thanks . ^^
How romantic can I get ! Ogosh !
am browsing through schools & courses .. gosh .. eyes pain
Am having an one-sided chatting with Adele .. hehe ..
*you can no need reply ^^ I just need someone for my to type to .
*It feels as though the time stopped .
*Everything seems to be going so slowly .
*If the heart is touchable , I believe mine is being squeeze now ..
*It really hurts . The heart beats very fast .
*I can watch funny video , laugh laugh laugh and then suddenly cry ..
*Tears just come out by themselves .
*It hurts so much . Hurts more than any relationships I use to have .
*I see the sofa , I think of him .
*I see the kitchen , I think of him .
*I see the toiley , I think of him .
*Everything just fucking reminds me of him & him & him ..
*You know , I told him before that if we were ever to break , he will be the one losing out many .
*But until now then I know , the one who totally lost was me .
*I lost everything ..
*The few most important stuffs in my heart , I lost them .
*I just feel like walking to Compass Point , sit at the staircase , eating bread & maybe drinking beer & look at the sky .
*I can't sleep . Fucking can't sleep .
*But this time , I am really tired .
*I called him just now for the last time , he said that I am being too princess in the past , so I called him & ask him for the last time regarding whether will he regret .
*I thank him , asked him to take care & I hung up the phone ..
*I am tired but it really hurts .
*really damn fucking pain ..
*Done .. guess so ? Thanks for letting me flood your msn ^^
*Don't pity me or try to console me ah . You know it won't works on me ^^
*But really , I love you ^^ Thanks . ^^
How romantic can I get ! Ogosh !
am browsing through schools & courses .. gosh .. eyes pain
Labels: Searching searching
8/04/2010 02:26:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Stability 42%
Orderliness 46%
Accommodation 58%
Intellectual 58%
Interdependence 43%
Mystical 43%
Materialism 43%
Narcissism 57%
Adventurousness 30%
Work ethic 50%
Conflict seeking 70%
Need to dominate 30%
Romantic 50%
Avoidant 63%
Anti-authority 50%
Wealth 30%
Dependency 63%
Change averse 90%
Cautiousness 57%
Individualism 77%
Sexuality 63%
Peter pan complex 77%
Histrionic 50%
Vanity 50%
Artistic 70%
Hedonism 57%
Physically active 30%
Religious 63%
Humanitarian 43%
Fiscal acumen 77%
Self image 63%
Honor 57%
Accountability 30%
Paranoia 57%
Extravagance 23%
Family drive 90%
Indie 50%
Extraversion results were very low which suggests you are extremely reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
Accommodation results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).
Intellectual results were moderately high which suggests you are intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.
Low Extraversion - you are not very social. This can be harmless preference but for some it correlates to unhappiness. Go out. Do stuff. Make friends.
Narcissism - you like awards, achievements, accomplishments.
Conflict seeking - you enjoy a little bit of violence, discord, and trouble making. This is a tendency that should be exercised with consideration of the happiness of others.
Change averse - you like to maintain the status quo. You probably would not enjoy a job with entailed a lot of unpredictability.
Peter pan complex - you want to avoid a conventional adult life. The author of this test suffers from this too. It's proved mostly harmless thus far.
Low Accountability - It's my fault. Go in front of a mirror and start practicing that for the next time you mess up. People will like you better.
Low Extravagance - you are not into the bling-bling. Vapid attractive people might not want to sleep with you.
Family drive - you value having a family. Over population is no joke, replacement level reproduction please!
Low Adventurousness - you are risk averse. A certain amount of risk has some place in any healthy person's life.
Low Need to dominate - you have little interest in leadership. When you feel you are the most capable, step forward on occasion.
Avoidant - you prefer distance from others. In moderation and on occasion isolation can be healthy. As a life's purpose, it's probably not (at least for most people).
Dependency - you want to be taken care off by others. This trait correlates more than any other on this test with Learned Helplessness so look that up.
Individualism - you want to be a unique person. Unfortunately, your score on this test indicates you are just like everyone else (sarcasm).
Artistic - you prefer to lead an artistic life. You're more likely be poor if you pursue the arts but that's less important than happiness.
Hedonism - you enjoy the pleasure of libations. Moderation will ensure a longer life.
Low Physically active - you don't seem to be particularly active. While you are on the couch you may want to read up on depression and type 2 diabetes which are the alternative.
Religious - you are true to your religious beliefs.
Low Humanitarian - you possibly don't care much about global warming, genocide in Rwanda, or the United Nations. Maybe you should consider caring more about the world you live in.
Fiscal acumen - you maintain prudent finances. Please send the author of this test some of your money.
Labels: (advance personality test) at Facebook
8/04/2010 12:40:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
是的，从这一刻起，我会开始慢慢学会忘了你。
前面的路或许会是非常辛苦的，但是，我相信我会努力的。
谢谢你让我彻彻底底地死心了。你说我每次都是无动于衷，可就在数分钟前，我做了最大的让步了。
谢谢你这一段时期以来给我的照顾；的关心；的回忆和那少少的爱。
我真得非常高兴能够认识你并与你共同拥有一段回忆。
虽然那些回忆并不是完美，所拥有的反而是更多的伤心，但是我还是开心的。
真的。
请多多保重了。希望我们有缘见面时，还能是朋友。
心好痛。一个你在我十七年的人生大概已经足够了吧？
不知道要等到几时我才能够又从新爱上另一个人了。
谢谢你。祝福你。
请你千万不要忘记那些不该被遗忘的事情。
前面的路或许会是非常辛苦的，但是，我相信我会努力的。
谢谢你让我彻彻底底地死心了。你说我每次都是无动于衷，可就在数分钟前，我做了最大的让步了。
谢谢你这一段时期以来给我的照顾；的关心；的回忆和那少少的爱。
我真得非常高兴能够认识你并与你共同拥有一段回忆。
虽然那些回忆并不是完美，所拥有的反而是更多的伤心，但是我还是开心的。
真的。
请多多保重了。希望我们有缘见面时，还能是朋友。
心好痛。一个你在我十七年的人生大概已经足够了吧？
不知道要等到几时我才能够又从新爱上另一个人了。
谢谢你。祝福你。
请你千万不要忘记那些不该被遗忘的事情。
Labels: Thankyou and take care
8/04/2010 12:30:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
8/03/2010 11:32:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Yes, I admit that I am still being influence by you but it won't be long ^^
If it wasn't because of her psyco-ing, I won't want to take back the camera.
You never bought anything for me before yet I did. You wanted to take the ONLY thing that you said that is a 'present'. Fuck u.
She is right, I shouldn't be so stupid. All along, I am like being the used one.
Fuck u ^^
If it wasn't because of her psyco-ing, I won't want to take back the camera.
You never bought anything for me before yet I did. You wanted to take the ONLY thing that you said that is a 'present'. Fuck u.
She is right, I shouldn't be so stupid. All along, I am like being the used one.
Fuck u ^^
Labels: hungry
8/03/2010 06:51:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Know what? I am somehow glad to broke up with him.
Labels: I want to go out
8/03/2010 06:47:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
Some people just love to lie through their teeth even though there isn't a need to do it. I mean , isn't it pathetic? yawn..
Just fucking woke up without any dream. A good thing^^
Hmm.. wondering should I go drinking with people not.. Hmm..
Think not havin enough sleep, eye pain=.=
I want to cut my hair short man! but will it be ugly?
Just fucking woke up without any dream. A good thing^^
Hmm.. wondering should I go drinking with people not.. Hmm..
Think not havin enough sleep, eye pain=.=
I want to cut my hair short man! but will it be ugly?
Labels: Cut or no cut
8/03/2010 05:31:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
my stupid brother laugh at me just because i get scare by the show-.-
stupid brother
stupid brother
Labels: stupid brother
8/03/2010 01:04:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
8/03/2010 12:19:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y
受了伤, 连微笑都彷徨
他走了带不走你的天堂
把爱放开; 把手放开; 如果你的心已不在
把爱放开; 不再等待; 你的温柔是一片空白
把爱放开; 把心打开
这次我决定走出回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来
totally don feel like gettin out of the chair; totally don feel like gettin away from the com.
feel like goin K-box. wonderin who is free now.
totally at a loss of what to do now. am like, lost?
lookin at the screen, listenin to the music & singin the song.
gosh. mens cramp. pain-.-
Labels: 就让我彻底地伤再彻底地醒过来
8/03/2010 08:50:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
Had a somewhat-quite peaceful broke up with Scott.
This is the first time & the last time we ever had such a calming quarrel. No one mention about leaving but it just happen.
He came in my house & pack his stuffs quietly while I sat there quietly too.
While he was packing, I went in to the room & played with my 'piano'..
Heart broken? Definitely.
Disappointed? For sure.
Sad? Of cause.
But among all of these negative emotions, felt a Slight relieve..
For this love that I had, I gave out alot.. Really. Many people could be witness.
Look at my past relationships & towards him- A total 360° difference.
But he didn't know; didn't care; didn't bother; didn't appreciate.
But he didn't know; didn't care; didn't bother; didn't appreciate.
So what is the point? Am tired.
For the 1st time ever in my life, I gave out so much to a guy, put in so much.
Tears just come out automatically but I don't know what do those tears mean.
Perhaps in my tears, there are so many mixtures of emotions leaving out happiness & joy.
Felt like drinking & was thinking of going drinking afew hours ago at about 10+pm. But didn't go in the end..
Felt like drinking & was thinking of going drinking afew hours ago at about 10+pm. But didn't go in the end..
Reason being, I don't feel like going drinking with another guy stranger. Planned to buy beer but couldn't buy through. So never mind.
Slept very early. Dreamt of him. And for no reason, dreamt of Casino? lols.
Felt silly. He must be feeling happy finally being able to get rid of me.
Hahas.
Heart had been beating very fast; very fast. And I could feel as though someone is squeezing my heart; pain.
Went out eating prata. And homed.
Chatted with Kok for awhile.
He laughed at me, saying he already predicted it & describing my relationship with Scott as "Puppy Love".
Smiled to myself & told him that, to me, it ain't.
He told me to just fucking get over him. 旧的不去，新的不来.
He somehow link the question to why would we break. Replied him saying, I don't know, I am tired.
Told him about how good Scott used to be to me. Told him how he protected me from that stupid guy from 'destroying' me.
And miraculously, Kok actually knew Lesly. Don't know how to spell.
Kok told me that it is only a matter of time when Scott will meet them. Don't really understand what he meant but guess it isn't some good stuffs?
Asked him what he mean but he don't want to tell me.
If that day actually do come, who will I help? 其实已经心知肚明，知道自己会帮他.
Just hoped that that day won't come.
Then Kok asked me a stupid question: "if between me & scott, who would you rather believe"
Then Kok asked me a stupid question: "if between me & scott, who would you rather believe"
Smiled at him & say: "what you think"
Then he goes: "puppy love"
hahas, mention to him about how sad & depress I am actually now & even if he don't mean it, but I somehow felt that he was 安慰-ing me, in the bastard way-.-
Keep saying how "Puppy love" are we & ask me to just forget.
Then he asked me whether would I patch with him again. Think for very long & said: "most probably no".
Feel like crying again, but brother is at home.
Maybe going to brother's school to find a malay guy. kids.
That stupid malay boy hit my stupid brother with a stupid bottle. and my stupid brother don't bother to tell his stupid teacher but come home & complained to me instead. So because of this stupid incident, I have to go down to the stupid school & find that stupid boy though I doubt my stupid brother's words somehow.
Yes, im tired.
If he couldnt change for me, for my sake & for my good, then why not lets just free ourselves from all the suffering?
i love him, i really do. this is the 1st time i ever gave out so much in a relationship. 1st time i ever tried & manage to change myself so much for a guy.
but he didnt appreciate it, didnt bother abt it.
im a human, a girl. fancy me having to fight with a computer programme for his attention.
im a human, a girl. fancy me having to fight with a computer programme for his attention.
all iwan is just more attention, more patience, more care & more love. are these too much to ask for?
you threaten me ytd, but darling, dont u know that idont get threaten that easily?
for the past few months, i already let go of my stubbornness. whenever we quarrel, i tried i tried i tried to keep my temper down & try my best to give in.
u always broke ur promises. yes, maybe those promises are small matters but u couldnt even keep ur words to these small little promises, what can i trust u with?
u always broke ur promises. yes, maybe those promises are small matters but u couldnt even keep ur words to these small little promises, what can i trust u with?
i believed u, even though u broke ur promises again & again but i believed u still.
yet u broke & twist ur promises ytd. u can even threaten me despite those being ur faults.
hahas..
darling, you said that you'd enough but what u didnt know was that, im tired too.
darling, you said that you'd enough but what u didnt know was that, im tired too.
tired of all those lies, tired of chasing aft what arent belonging to me..
although time heals, time also allows drifting.. we are drifting apart.
perhaps this is really the end. really am tired.
if you couldnt give in, couldnt change for me, iwould rather suffer the pain now then later.
tired. and it feels so hard to be the old me again. u have change me alot.
gosh, im tearing up again.
guess it will be a long & hard time for me to get up again but life still goes on without u. right?
u didnt change. towards ur family, towards ur ex, towards me, u didnt change.
but guess this is u alr right? u said that this is u & ihave no rights & have to accept u for who u are.
but im me too, isnt it?
tired..
thankyou for all those memories that you'd given me. thankyou for all those lessons that you'd taught me. thankyou for letting me learn. and thankyou for being there.
iloveu still. iloveu alot still.
imissu still. imissu alot still.
but we have to grow up sooner or later.
how long would i get up again? iwonder.
how pain would it feel? painer & painer.
maybe perhaps, if u really love me, u would change.
maybe perhaps, if u really love me, u would change.
but it wont happen, not in the past, not now & never in the future.
the days are long still.
Labels: Do you still love me
8/03/2010 07:29:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y
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