Spent a 'wealthy' day yesterday . Went to Sakae for brunch with Scotty . Went to Jack's place for dinner with Scotty & his ladies . Went to Kovan Pub with Scotty , Edwin , Jeremy & Valerie .
Fight happened in the pub ! Fight that involve WEAPONS & my LOVER and people that I KNOW ! Fuck you man ! Didn't I warn you not to start the ball rolling !

Currently am being so scared now .
Do you know the feeling of being wake up when you was dreaming .
And the person whom woke you up is your lover & he told you that :" I need to go down now because of what happen yesterday . The big shots are informed & I don't know what'll happen ." And all you did was just stare at him shocked .
And when you starts to get so involved with the news & wanted to follow him FOR THE FIRST TIME , he told you that you can't .
After that , what he did was just walking around the house & changing his cloths . You just followed him no matter where he goes to & your mind is blank .
Before he goes out , you hug him & held back your tears . You told him to becareful & be safe . He told you that :" You should had expect this since you first know me . The moment I joined , I know this day will come ."
And all you can do is just watch him walk to the lift and go down .
And you bloody forget to tell him how much , how much you love him !

After he went out , you just search the whole house for a spare phone so that you can use to contact him .
While searching , your limbs are shivering & your palms are cold . Bascially , you just did everything wrong .
You close the drawer with your fingers still on it . You walk across the kictchen & nearly trip over . You went in the toilet and slipped . You walk to the bedroom and bang your toes on the bed frame . You choke while drinking water .

And finally , you found a spare phone & put your sim card in . When you on the phone , messages start spamming in . And you bloody recieve a message from your sister with a :" Save me" in chinese .
So while struggling to type a :" Be safe" message to your lover , you called your sister & she bloody didn't answer the phone .
So while waiting for your lover to reply you , you called your sister's lover & he too didn't know where is your sister .
So you just sat infront of the com & sign in to MSN & Facebook hoping to find your lover's friend . You called your lover's friend & he too didn't answer the phone .

Finally your sister called back & tell you that she is safe . Finally , the heavy feeling eased somehow .
And then your dad started to not answering the phone calls .
Total shag-ness now . And for this fucking post , it took me 1 hour plus to type out just simply because your fingers aren't listening to you .
Tears are coming and going back . The painful feeling of controlling your tears continues . I am so so tired , please be safe .

Really , please be safe & I love you ..

Labels: I love you, Please be safe

8/19/2010 11:30:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

Those that are cunning;
aren't scary.
Those that appears innocent;
then are.

-BuzzingBee-

Poh Hong
Mostly known as Bee instead. The one that goes Buzzing and not Crying.
5th July
Proud Cancerian

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