Darling, I am just Seventeen; only Seventeen..

Extremely tired; be it mentally or physically.
Broke down just now the moment I reach home.

Scott was drinking for the past many many days. And because of it, I am getting home early in the morning, taking care for Scott that is drunk, facing the anger and coldness from both my parents & brothers, feeling the coldness of my home, getting worried about Scott & etc.. Getting real tired of it.
Dear, I am only Seventeen.

It is ok you know, I don't regret things that I'd did. I really won't.
For your sake, although it is tough for me, I am willing to have a cold war with my family.
For your sake, although it is tough for me, I am willing to rest less than what I need.
But what had you shown me?
Getting drunk, getting seh, getting out-of-your-mind?

Do you know how angry was I just now at Kovan?
Do you know that I am so pissed off that I can laugh, cry & be angry at the same time?
Do you know this kind of feeling? I was so angry till I can't control myself!
And do you know that you almost slapped me? Do you know?
You don't..

Becky, Becky, Becky. It is all about Becky isn't it?
Since you are so pissed off with that guy because of Becky, then go ahead and find that guy.
I knew that uncle was talking to you about me just now but I didn't pay attention to what he was talking..
Dear, who is your stead girlfriend now? Who do you really love now? Me or her?
And to think Kelvin was telling me all the way that you loved me the most..
Becky..

And now while I am typing, what are you doing?
Getting drunk & lying in my living room like no one's business..
I helped you to the toilet & everything. You didn't even know that I totally just fell to the bed & cried..
I am tired, really..

Dear, I am only Seventeen. I am just Seventeen.. I love my family. I love you.
I can't take it anymore longer, I can't stand coldness from my family without receiving what I am suppose to deserve from you!
You are making whatever I am doing to you, a waste! You don't know my heart; you don't know what I am thinking!

You always say that you own everyone alot of things, but have you ever think of me? What about me? Where am I standing in your heart & mind?
I am starting to drift apart from my family & friends.. I am really tired..
Becky.. lols, I was right beside you & you was telling the uncle how much you want to kill that guy for Becky.. lols? AHAHAS !
oyes, I am crying again.. Useless..


有时候，该放手的时候就不应该勉强地留着 …
因为换来的只有一波又一波的；心痛

Labels: I am only seventeen

9/22/2010 11:55:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

Those that are cunning;
aren't scary.
Those that appears innocent;
then are.

-BuzzingBee-

Poh Hong
Mostly known as Bee instead. The one that goes Buzzing and not Crying.
5th July
Proud Cancerian

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