18th Nov 2010 .
Yea, 1 more month had passed & nothing changes..
The sun still rises, the moon still sets. It is still the same..
Had a ridiculous quarrel earlier on..

Well, am lazy to elaborate..
Guess it isn't important or even As important right?

Labels: Mermaid

11/18/2010 05:29:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱只能那么少
我只有不停地要
要到你想逃
泪湿的枕头晒干就好
眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
以为在你身后
是我我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要
我不要你的呵护 你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好 贪心也好
哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望
我不要你的承诺 不要你的永远 (我需要你的承诺 需要你的永远)
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好 贪心也好
最怕你把沉默 当做对我的回答
原来你什么都不想要

Am so sleepy after a day of torture & waterfall from my eyes caused by You-Know-Who..
Finally get to eat at RMall after the long torture.. Saw Jonathan & chit-chat with him while eating.
So damn pathetic-.- Lazy type.. Sleepy head~

Labels: Yawn

11/12/2010 09:51:00 PM thus; ibuzzed Y

Labels: Kiwi

11/12/2010 04:51:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

It is 4.01am and it is a Friday morning!
Been asleep from 4pm+ till now. Didn't eat anything throughout the whole day. Really ate NOTHING at all! gosh~ Nothing at home for me to eat now. Saded..

Time seems to passing quite fast for me. Really..
When was the day you left my life? I couldn't remember at all. Really..
All I remembered for these past few days was the 1st time we met; or I should put it in this way. For the past few days after you left my life, all I thought of was all the past memories.. All those happy happy stuffs.. Those are the only few things that came popping up my mind. I couldn't recall automatically those bad stuffs.

Broke down on Thursday's afternoon. Cried and cried in the bathroom while bathing. It felt good, really.. Kinda relieve, really..
At the moment, I really miss you alot, really love you alot, really.. Those messages are sent without the intention from my mind but from my heart. Hmm.. Understand? It means that I sent them from my heart without listening to my brain.. Aiyoh, is like..
Brain: Don't send! You would only disgrace yourself & make him step all over your pride!
Heart: No.. I really feel like sending. I have to send! It hurts! It really hurts!
Yea, hahas.. This is kinda the 'war' between my brain & heart.
So lei, I still sent it out. Yea, I really hate everything!
But I hate you because I love you too much..

You had hurt me alot alot, really..
After crying & everything, went to bed & felt so sick.. So fell asleep.
You didn't keep to your promise and reply what you should reply..
Well, I guess time really will heal. I don't know my feelings now but so far, IF I AM NOT LYING TO MYSELF WHICH I DON'T KNOW TOO, I don't feel too much of sadness & heartbroken.. All I am worried about now is.. Yea, you should know, Kelvin should know too.. Hahas!
Kelvin ah Kelvin~ Maybe I really do treat you as someone I could trust already I guess? Even though I always told Scott that you guys are his friends and not mine, but I think you are the only friend of his that I trust already.
Rong Jun was one of the person I trust but that was IN THE PAST already. It was only you & him who knew that news last time & now, only you know. I really hope you won't break my trust, really.. I really do treat you as my friend already.. Well, be proud ^^ Because I seldom treat guys as real friend. ^^

Hais.. Just had a dream just now. Dreamt that Scott was in my house BUT he was with one of his ex.
Actually he didn't know about this, but I had heard rumours out there before that he was just toying with me. That was months ago though.. I never belief them, really.. Even though I might be saying sarcastic words everytime, But I don't believe them at all.. But now, I really don't know.

I really never want to quarrel even after we ended up like this. I called & messaged you everytime peacefully but you was the one who always make it till so bad.
I couldn't understand, when you was with me, you didn't want to go out. You spent the whole afternoon & morning sleeping.. You don't even wants to go to Compass Point with me. However, you can go running around with your friends.
Maybe Kelvin is wrong.. Hahas, Gosh, I am crying again~
Maybe Kelvin is wrong.. I am not the one that you love & treasure most. To you, it doesn't matters whether am I there or not.. Really..
Do you know that you really broke my heart? You are the guy that I love & treasured the most but.. Hahas.. I guess this is retribution for me. I didn't know how to treasure my exs in the past & now, I am in love with someone who doesn't know how to treasure me..

All are lies.. Your forever are lies.. Your 10, 20 years are lies.. Your happy family are lies..
You asked me to believe in forever, you asked me to believe in 10, 20 years, you asked me to believe in happy family, you asked me to believe you..
But you don't even believe in them!
You knew about my family. You knew that I don't trust in relationship. You asked me to believe in you but why must you lie to me?
After 7 months of being together & almost 2/3 of it, we were sticking together everyday. After 7 months of being together and going through so many & even things that some don't go through, you still don't understand me..

Well, I guess this isn't a fairytale world so I won't be having a fairytale love. Time will heal, really.. After everything is done, I really will be ok..
I am already starting to heal, really.. You can put down a relationship easily doesn't mean I can. So why must I blame you for not loving me as much as I do to you? I really think it through already.. I really grow up already.
Jervis's birthday is coming soon..
I guess I will be ok soon. really.. As long as you don't pissed me off again. Teehee!!

Just talk to mum & was planning about Baby's birthday! OMG! Hahas! can't imagine Baby's face when he saw the cake!
The only few things that kept me alive still even after it & now again are both my brothers.
Well, you used to be one of the reasons that kept me alive especially before & after June.. Teehee.. Would you be my reason again? Just wondering..

But well, this time it is different already isn't it? Both of us deleted everything already. never mind never mind ^^ Time won't wait for us to be sad!
I wonder how long will it take for me to forget you~ I just hope this get settles fast & life will start getting normal for me again~ and for you too..
I love myself when I am not pissed with you. Because this is the only time when I am calm & think well..
I don't hate you, really. I am not that kind of girl who will harm other. Really. I can't even kill an ant, please~ But you are really the 1st person who can make me go so crazy man!
Crazy baby~ ahahas!

Yea, new day new life! Yawn, I am getting hungry!

Labels: Teehee.. When then can I forget man

11/12/2010 03:57:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

Everyone in Singapore should have at least heard of the gang 369. Its just a name created by some gangsters who roamed the streets to identify themselves and try to make everyone scared of them. They even expanded and multiplied by recruiting school dropouts or some old Uncles who have tatoo all over the body just like Micheal Scoffield from Prison Break. Maybe they can recruit Christopher Lee soon.

Now, let me reveal to you the darkest secrets of the gang 369, and how they were formed.

Long before our times (or some of our times), there were 6 good buddies who played and grew up together. All of them had a common trait. They were all dropouts from school. They would always get together to play to eat and even to sleep together. Soon, they were so attached to each other that they have formed a sort of brotherly bond.

As soon as they hit their teenage years, they started roaming the streets. And they soon found out the dirty little business that were running in Geylang. They wanted to have a go at it, but they realized that the services there of cause, required a little fee. Broke they were, but they managed to find themselves a job serving Coffee at some old coffeeshops. After a month of hard work, they could finally get their hands on some cash. They got together and happily travelled to their destination, to accomplish a common goal that all of them had.

Upon reaching their desired destination, they quickly rushed to the nearest chick there was and got their hands on her. But as soon as they were ready to bring the chick to a nearby hotel, they were stopped by a group of gangsters which are more popularly known as "Ah bengs". This group of "Ah bengs" had named themselves AST, which is well knowned as Ang Shun Tong. But what others did not know was AST actually has another meaning. It means A Sex Triad. These group of people stopped the 6 great buddies from entering their territory as they were afraid that the buddies were trying to fight for their territory.

So they taught them a lesson and brutally beat the 6 buddies up. They extorted money from them, but only managed to get a mediocre sum from them. So they decided to throw them all into a Gay street and were forced to be engaged in sexual activity with them. After several nights, they managed to escape Hell and got far away from that place with tattered clothes on them. The 6 of them decided to take revenge and to grow stronger in order to fight back.

A few days after the escape, they still could not come up with an idea. But the 6 of them were growing hornier as time passes. This time they could hold no longer and had to perform sexual activities on each other to ease their urge. Miraculously, the favourite position that the 6 of them liked was the 69 position! After that intimate session, they all came up with an idea, just like AST. They decided to call themselves 369, which stood for Three 69 positions. Having created the foundation, they all now needed manpower to overcome the overwhelming power of AST. So, they spent nights recruiting anyone that suited their criteria, one who knows the 69 position. Very soon, they got up an army of gangsters and fought the AST to retrive their honour. They won gracefully and owned the whole of Geylang.

The society has now grown much smaller as there are lesser Gays in this country. And they soon resorted to recruit and school dropouts and old Uncles who sit in coffeeshop, drinking beer and doing nothing else.
Everyone knows about 369, BUT THE GREAT X KNOWS ABOUT THEIR HISTORY AND REVEALS IT TO YOU NOW.


Copied from http://gen-life.blogspot.com/2007/06/secrets-of-369_30.html

Labels: http://gen-life.blogspot.com/2007/06/secrets-of-369_30.html

11/11/2010 07:18:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

我無法幫妳預言
求委曲全有沒有用
可是我多麼不捨
朋友愛的那麼苦痛

愛可以不問對錯
至少要喜悅感動
如果他總為別人撐傘
妳何苦非為他等在雨中

泡咖啡讓妳暖手
想擋擋妳心口裡的風
妳卻想上街走走
吹吹冷風會清醒的多

妳說妳不怕分手
只有一點遺憾難過
情人節就要來了
剩自己一個
其實愛對了人
情人節每天都過

分手快樂　祝妳快樂
妳可以找到更好的
不想過冬　厭倦沉重
就飛去熱帶的島嶼游泳

分手快樂　請妳快樂
揮別錯的才能和對的相逢
離開舊愛　像坐慢車
看透徹了心就會是晴朗的

沒人能把誰的幸福沒收
妳發誓妳會活的有笑容
妳自信時候真的美多了


It seems that after so many years, I still love this song alot. Though it can't be compared to another song.
After 7months & 23days of being together, we ended up like this again. Well, maybe this is fate? Already kinda been expecting it.

Sincerly, I really thank you for the past few months. Really..
Too much words to be express. Anyway, didn't plan to inform anyone this time.
Time will heal, won't it? Life still goes on without you.
The are so many differences between you & my exs.
I am left with nothing but BIG trouble now & you chose to leave now. Well, I thought I met someone different but it is still the same.
I am not trying to say you are bad or what, am just kinda.. complaining to myself. Laughing at myself.

Anyway, good luck in your life, really. I will try to solve those problem myself. Will really try. I used to love you & I believe this will continue until I met another person again.

Labels: Take care.

11/10/2010 06:54:00 AM thus; ibuzzed Y

Those that are cunning;
aren't scary.
Those that appears innocent;
then are.

-BuzzingBee-

Poh Hong
Mostly known as Bee instead. The one that goes Buzzing and not Crying.
5th July
Proud Cancerian

-BuzzingBee-